Book Review: Tweak by Nic Sheff

TweakJacketI read David Sheff‘s book Beautiful Boy about living through his son’s Meth addiction and throughout the read, I realized that it would be great to read the son’s perspective, so I picked up a copy of Tweak by Nic Sheff.

Beautiful Boy was an incredible raw book of a parent’s journey through a child’s addiction, but I wasn’t at all prepared for the mental picture that accompanied the writings of the Nic Sheff.  There is a raw, sort of, unedited perspective that is written with the mindset that the end result will be death, not life.

Tweak picks up about half way through Nic’s meth addiction – after he finds himself cut off from his parents financially, turning tricks to make ends meet so that he can score his next round of blow.  He talks about doing drugs that range from marijuana to meth (his drug of choice) to heroine.  Not only does he have an addiction to drugs, he also has an addiction to alcohol and sex.  This book is written from the perspective of an early 20-something that seems to only care about his needs.

Much like Beautiful Boy, he highlights parts of his life that uses a day format.  He talks about his stints in sobriety, some lasting as long as 18 months before the pull and allure of the drugs drag him deeper and deeper into his addiction.  He lies, cheats, steals and leaves one of his girlfriends at a market for four hours while he goes to steal something from his mother’s house and then subsequently collapses in her garage.

The vividness of his account is extraordinary.  When he goes into a building to score more drugs, you can feel the emotions he felt – your heart rate increases when uncertainty surrounds.  This book is much more raw and unfiltering of his experiences then Beautiful Boy.  This book takes you deep inside his thoughts, his actions, the words that flow from his mouth in a series of explictives.  His candor in sharing these experiences is inviting, but you should be prepared for the experience.

I recommend this book, but I recommend you read Beautiful Boy first and then Tweak, as you will be able to understand the sequence much better this way.  The Today Show did an interview with Nic and David discussing their books and experiences. To date, Nic has been sober for about two years.  That is exciting to hear. Nic was sober for nearly two years before relapsing about five months ago on prescription drugs, and has been sober since.

Book Review: Beautiful Boy – David Sheff

BeautifulBoyJacketDrugs are rampant in our society right now.  From the experimentation of young teens to the fully addicted, they permiate through everything.  In Beautiful Boy, David Sheff takes on a journey that no parent ever wants to experience – watching your child spiral downward into addiction hell.

When I read this book, I had just returned from Agape Tour where we visit drug and alcohol rehab facilities.  We hear stories of hope & redemption but rarely hear the cycle that parents and families endure during this process.  This book broke my heart.  The passion of a father who wanted to see his son released from the pain of his addiction and the son who appeared to fight against everything that seemed appropriate to heal.

David Scheff recounts the spiral of his son, Nic Sheff, into this addiction from his point of view.  He questions the decisions he made – divorce, enablement, recovery, etc.  I can’t imagine what a parent thinks & fears when he doesn’t hear from his child for weeks and months at a time.  When contact is made, the constant questioning of the truth is always present in the forefront of the mind as David recounts.  He tells of the denial of the problem, the times his house was broken in to, the times his son was higher than a kite and many other experiences.

However, this story is not entirely devoid of hope and redemption.  He talks about the journey of surfing, kayaking, and other activities including a family vacation after one of Nic’s stints in rehab & sobriety.  There was a sorrow and joy in the writing as there should be.  There was the moment when enough was enough – rehab or no support at all.

This book is a realistic approach to the family side of the drug issue.  It is not for the faint of heart, either.  This book is raw, full of emotion, moments of course language, but I also believe it is a book that all parents should read.  Pick this book up today for a rare look behind the family side of drug related illnesses.

For Nic Sheff‘s side of the story, check out Tweak – it is also a fantastic read.